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Once it sinks in that you will never see someone again, the laughter stops, and a completely different emotion comes out. You know, I hadn't actually cried in 6 years. Today was the open casket viewing. It's strange. The person lying in the casket is the person you knew, and yet it isn't. You realize that the thing that made them who they were wasn't the actual flesh and bone. The Life that ran through their veins, the spirit in their breath, the soul that filled their being is gone. And you realize that you will never see all of that together in the same way again. It makes you feel incredibly incomplete, because when you invest yourself in someone, when you love someone, a bit of your soul is exchanged with them in a way. And when they go, they take a bit of you with them.

Comments

Jenn said…
Grief is a strange process. I'll keep you in my thoughts as you experience this.
27/2/08 16:27
evidentemente yo said…
well... as you have said is an exchange, the best we can do is to maintain, and don't forget, the piece he has left with us.

This hours i am alternating smiles with blurry eyes... strange how past moments make me react.
27/2/08 16:46
Miriam said…
I don't really know what to say, but that I'll be thinking of and praying for you.
27/2/08 20:35
miriam said…
ahora tengo el sentimiento que "no es justo", quizás no estoy correcta, pero es asi.
28/2/08 21:14
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